Day 4 : God what am I afraid of?
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” (Coach Carter, Timo Cruz, actual quote is from Marianne Williamson)
I think all of us have fears of various things. For some, it’s the unknown. Others are afraid of the dark. Still others are afraid of heights. We all face fear at some point in our lives. . Fear is a common theme for many people. It surfaces when we start a new job or when we are waiting for a call from the doctor’s office. Some fear that their abilities will not meet the task and they will fail. There are so many people whose lives are literally attempts to mask their fear rather than face it.
What if our fears weren’t necessarily bad?
What if fear in some ways was just our way of climbing up that next step into what God has made us to do?
What if our fear is really just a catalyst into the next stage of our lives?
What if the fear that is so common to each of us is really just the call of God for us to trust him even more?
I absolutely love the story of Peter walking on water with Jesus. In short, Jesus had performed an incredible miracle (as if they all are not incredible) in feeding several thousand people with only a few loaves of bread and some small fish. Following the meal, Jesus sent his disciples across the lake to prepare for the next day, but he went away to pray. In the middle of the night, the disciples were in the midst of a furious storm on the lake when they look up and see Jesus walking towards them on the water. Already exhausted from trying to keep the boat afloat and the potential dying, now they are probably thinking they had died because a ghost was coming towards them. Instead, Jesus calls them to stop being afraid and trust Him. Peter cries out to Jesus “If it’s you, then call me to you on the water.” You know the rest of the story, Peter walks out on the water - hesitates and begins to sink but Jesus saves him. There is much to be said about stepping out in trust and then taking our eyes off of God, but I don’t want that to be our focus here. Instead, consider this: Peter alone walked on water. None of the other disciples could say that - ever. Peter looked to Jesus and said, I am afraid, but I trust you with my fear. Man that is powerful. Fear is common to all of us, what is not common is that some have learned to trust Jesus with that fear.
Today I want to challenge you to ask God, “What am I afraid of?” and be patient and humble enough to listen. Remember courage is borne of adversity and fear. Often we forget, those accomplishments in our lives were at one point unbridled fears that had yet to have been taken captive and made to submit to the authority of Christ. I believe I have always resonated with the above quote from Coach Carter because it reminded me that truly, I am made in the image of God, restored by the sacrifice of Jesus, and set apart by the Holy Spirit. My ability to accept that is the key to my liberation. It’s the key to my opportunity to lay my fears on the altar and allow God to take them as my sacrifice and use them as His vehicle. Most of our lives are lived in quiet desperation uncertain of God’s calling, when in reality the fact that we have lives at all should be evidence of His calling.
What fears in my life do I need to own?
How can I begin to trust God with my fears?
Go in Peace